Hais, currently quarrelling with hubby on the phone. Tears keep falling and my heart is in a mess. I realised i`ve changed alot over the past few months. Hubby doesnt trust me now and he always thinks im flirting. He doesnt even understand how im feeling right now. Yes, i`ve said i`ll change for him, im trying, maybe he doesnt see it nor feel it, but deep inside of me, im struggling silently. Everytime we quarrel, i would try to take a step back and apologise.I dont know what i must do to show him i love him, he doesnt believe my love for him is true. Hais, im really very sad and confused but who can i turn to when hubby is not even there to understand how i feel ? Everytime i try to talk to him, we would start quarreling. Seriously, i really hate to be like this. I wanna change back to what i am last time, but does hubby think its that easy? He feels i`ve changed but i feel i`ve not. NO ONE CAN EVER UNDERSTAND WHAT IM FUCKING FEELING RIGHT NOW. Everytime i would think how i can go about changing my darn attitude but it never seems to work out. I know this fucked up attitude of mine might really weaken the relationship between us but i dont want this to happen at all. Im really trying my best to change.. cant you see? hais... its okay, i realise that no one ever understands what im going through now. I might look happy on the outside, but deep inside, NO ONE knows how im feeling. Everyone may think hubby and me are such a loving couple, and i wished we were without all this dumb little quarrels.. Hais.. ( :: "-" :: ) Sorry hubby. Forgive me kkaes? And PLS PLS believe my love for you is true, dont doubt me pls. I really cannot take it when i really ove you but you say i dont. Hais.. =C